Family statement released 6/30/2016
Today our family lost our beautiful blue eyed girl with a heart of gold. She had big ambitions, loved music, enjoyed going to Bear Lake with her grandparents, and was a kind and loving soul. She accomplished a lot in her 20 years but now the world will never know the good she could have accomplished because she was taken from us too soon. We are grateful for the 20 years we had with her and thankful for the outpour of love and prayers for our families as we process this new reality for us, a world without her.
As we mourn for Madi we also see and feel many people mourning with us. We also mourn the loss of her friend who lost his life in the accident and for his family and their loss. We are sorry for your loss. In our sorrow, in time, we will find forgiveness for the driver that caused this senseless act that forever changed many lives. Our hearts also go out to her family.
Written by Uncle Lee
I started with the statement from that day 6/30/2016, I saw this yesterday for the first time since that day and started to reflect on it a bit. I still have not written my victim impact statement for Wednesday, I am really struggling, not because of the words, but because I am so disappointed in so many people and I do not know how to make my statement not be full of rage. Every time I start it goes immediately to my most angry place and I don’t honestly at this point think it is the time to share that, I feel off guard and that I am not ready. But one thing I can say that I have learned from this is that life doesn’t care if you are ready and some people seem to care even less than life does.
Looking at the statement that Madi’s uncle Lee wrote that day I got stuck on Bear Lake of all things. It just stood out, I started thinking about how my parents took my other two children to Bear Lake the week after Madi’s funeral. And I remembered how it felt when I met them there a few days later, it felt empty, it felt sad, it felt forced and unnatural because we were missing someone who should have been there and who would have been there so I decided to make a list of what Madi missed.
Madi missed a balloon release in hers and Tyler’s honor
Madi missed my birthday, and only by two days, yes Madi was killed two days before my birthday
Madi missed the family dinner at my cousin Jessie’s and Nikki’s house the Sunday after she was killed and she missed seeing their dog Norman the Newfie who is always a favorite with my kids
Madi missed her funeral and the Cage the Elephant concert that she had bought tickets for that happened to be on that same night
Madi missed the 4th of July
Madi missed the trip to Bear Lake the week after her funeral and several trips since then
Madi missed her cousin Jamie’s wedding, which I also missed because I couldn’t put one foot in front of the other that soon after her death
Madi missed her cousin Talia’s wedding
Madi missed her first day at Weber State University
Madi missed her Grandpa’s birthday
Madi missed Halloween which is always our families favorite
Madi missed Thanksgiving
Madi missed mine and Zoey’s Christmas trip to Vegas, although we wouldn’t have been there if we had still had Madi. We literally went and hid away because neither of us were ready to face a Christmas without her
Madi missed New Years
Madi missed her brother Diego’s 15th Birthday dinner
Madi missed her sister Zoey’s 18th Birthday and our trip to the Natural History museum of Utah and the Spaghetti factory
Madi missed her Grandma’s Birthday
Madi missed our family paint night
Madi missed Bark in the Park, this was a shared honor for her, but she still missed it
Madi missed her 21st Birthday, the one she had talked about so much in the four weeks between her birthday and when she was killed
Madi missed the horrible anniversary date of when she was killed, but we did not and I do not have or want a picture of this
Madi missed my birthday again and I spent some of it at her headstone because the two days prior was the anniversary date of her death and an overwhelming amount of flowers and gifts had been left to adorn her grave
Madi missed when her brother Diego bought his first car
Madi missed her cousin Taylor’s wedding
Madi missed her Uncle Jason’s Wedding and our big family trip to New England that we had been planning for the two years prior to her death.
Madi missed the sleepover at Uncle Lee’s new house with Zoey and her cousin Audrie
Madi missed getting our new puppy Leo, something she would have been so happy about and she missed all of the picture taking she would have done with Leo, Moo-Shoo and Flash, no one takes doggy pictures quite like Madi did
Madi missed shopping trips, going out to eat, going to see movies, looking for a new apartment with Zoey and me. She missed school, friends, concerts, tattoos, holidays. She missed the trips to Mesquite with her Grandparents and Zoey and Diego. She missed a lot, she missed too much.
This is a long list, but this is only a portion of what Madi missed. What we missed is Madi. She should have been with us through all of these things and more. When I look at the pictures we have taken since she has been gone it is plain to see what we missed and what we will always miss…. we miss Madi and she can’t be in our pictures anymore. Our pictures will always be without Madi and I think that says it all.