Wear a cardigan and no one will suspect a thing…

Almost any sweater works, but a Cardigan screams ” what me? I would never do such a thing” and even possibly a “how dare you” if your Cardigan is old fashion enough.

I love the show Desperate Housewives and I Love Lucy  has always been a favorite. Obviously I appreciate women who just can’t seem to be good, but I didn’t know until going through the past year that I shared a skill set with the hilarious ladies of these shows, for lack of a better description I will call it necessary manipulation.

Necessary manipulation is a survival skill, I won’t pretend to be a genius, but I don’t think people who lack this skill when going through a personal tragedy are very wise.    It’s like their brains can’t expand beyond the crap information they are spoon fed.   I try to avoid these types,  I can identify them quickly and  since it is usually  just a matter of time before I piss them off with a mouthy comment or two the trash tends to take itself out.

These types seem to think they are honorable for trusting what they are told.  Yeah…. that’s not really honorable dummies, it’s being part of the herd and something the people who are controlling the situation are counting on.  Maybe I should be thankful of these types, I mean after all if I can manage to keep my mouth shut I can use these people to give the real manipulators a false sense of hope.

I did pretty good at this for a lot longer then I thought I could.  I didn’t want to show my crazy until I had all of the information I needed.  I would show up to court  and meetings  with the Weber County attorney wearing the “cardigan”.   I would smile and nod and keep my mouth shut, I managed for months and months, but it was only a matter of time before I blew up.  The blow up  happened in stages, and while it did offer some comic relief along the way my innocent act is definitely a thing of the past.  Everyone all the way up to the judge knows my true feelings and opinions and while that ends that game it opens up an opportunity for me to get the truth out.

I was stupid too, just like the sheep.  I was a different kind of stupid though, I was stupid because I didn’t open my big mouth sooner, I didn’t want to be the cause of things going wrong.  If I could rewind to the beginning I would have been the biggest loud mouthed B**** from the get go, but you can’t really believe that people can do the things that they do to you when you’re dealing with your innocent child being killed for no reason, but they don’t care and that is the sad truth.  They don’t think you are more important than their pathetic careers, I do believe in Karma, but at this point I feel like I have earned the right to help give karma a push.

So Please stay tuned, I promise to do my best to be entertaining.  I have the Weber County Police Report in my hot little hand.  It’s full of lots of ridiculousness and I WILL be sharing little portions of what is written in there along with some observations that I would love some input on from others.



Life Dropout

I guess I took a break, I am not sure why or how it became a break, but that’s what it was.  It wasn’t a positive or negative break and I didn’t even realize I was taking it until maybe a week ago.  I think I have become a life dropout and I don’t really want to go back and get my diploma.  I don’t think I need it or that it’s beneficial in any way.

I might go back just so I can hangout with friends, but I’ll probably just watch them finish their work.  I have no interest in any of my own assignments.  The teachers and administrators are all frauds and now that I know that I see no point in doing anything they assign to me.

I can get way more out of my own assignments anyways, I know what I need to learn and where my focus needs to be.  I guess I am on independent study, being home schooled for now.  I never realized there was an option like this, hopefully I can dig deep and graduate quickly using my own curriculum.

Now that I have seen what people are capable of I would rather be uneducated.  It’s not even what they are capable of really, it’s what they can convince theirselves into believing they had to do.  My driving force right now is showing them they made the wrong decisions.

If you fear standing up to someone evil, I hate to break it to you,  life probably has some lessons coming your way.   Life’s lessons are not listed in an index in any books of life that you can find.  They are more of an on the job training or an internship that you will need to complete before graduating.

I by all means am not even close to graduation, but I do have lots of random pages that were left out of the textbooks.  I have spent hundreds of hours sorting this big mess of papers that I have collected.  I have it separated and labeled by violation.  I have as a result of my pre dropout internship for life learned to take the emotion out.

Besides learning how to look for only the facts I also learned to collect this information.  I learned that just because it seems like I don’t need this right now someday I might, and for me that someday actually came.  As I read through the pages and highlight what I need I don’t even see any of the words or sentences that show emotion.

The facts stand out to me without a highlighter.  I only use the highlighter to show others what I can already see as bolded.  I also call it what it is, I call it those ugly words that I am pretty sure we are pre-programmed not to say because it is impolite.

No it is not impolite it’s reality and people need to be called out on their bulls**t.  Call it what it is; call it bullying, harassment, discrimination, retaliation.  Put it in writing so that they know you are aware of it.  They aren’t going to like it, but do not care about their likes.   What they like or dislike has no benefit to you I promise.

The sad part about this series of unwritten life lessons is that the people thinking they are obeying, and doing as they should look like the perpetrators.  They have their names all over the written proof, they put their names on something that is not their work, and we’ve probably all done that same thing.

In reality they are only little game pieces to the players, they are pawns.  They are probably made of material that can be crushed.   If somehow they are made of something strong they probably haven’t exercised and built their strength and are small; small enough to go into the trash.

I think I was perceived by the players as being made of something strong, but they thought I was small.  I might have been small, but they don’t know about recyclable yet; that is what I am here for.  I am here to teach them about what happens when trash is recycled.

I don’t know for sure what happens, but I know recycled trash does one thing for sure without a doubt.  It comes back.  When it does come back it’s already recycled and doesn’t care about getting the diploma of life.

Marsy’s Law: Ohio OKs expanded rights for crime victims

I am a huge proponent of the ACLU, I really am, and I think what they do is absolutely needed and I even think we need more of what they do.

With that being said, as a crime victim I see things through new eyes.  I can honestly say victims have no rights and I can honestly say good luck finding anyone to help you, even if they are someone you hired and are paying.

It is seriously horrible.  We don’t get to know all of the details, we don’t get to see all of the evidence.  We don’t get to have the cars our kids were killed in released to the insurance adjuster so that we don’t have to make payments (11 months this took).  We have had very short notice on hearings (less than a day).  Things change no one tells us (youth probation hearings).

Almost everything in our judicial system is built to protect the accused.  We do have a victims bill of rights, but this is obviously left up to interpretation and good luck getting someone to help on that as well.

There is no right side on this.  In certain circumstances people accused of crimes get wrongly accused and treated badly, and if people want to admit it or not this happens day in and day out in our country.

Victims get violated over and over again.  They get treated like a nuisance and a problem, it honestly feels like if they could get you to go away they would.  I don’t know what the fix is, but there has to be something.  Anyways, good job Ohio!!


Marsy’s Law: Ohio OKs expanded rights for crime victims

Ohioans have voted to expand crime victims’ rights to more closely match those of the accused. Approval of Issue 1 Tuesday places the new guarantees into the state constitution. They include notice of court proceedings, input on plea deals and the ability for victims and their families to tell their story.


Cynthia Brown convicted of murder, sentenced to life?? I honestly don’t know enough to comment, but again extreme inconsistencies.

If you read below it  appears as if they would have had reasonable doubt as far as a murder conviction goes, yet some kill innocent people who were in the wrong place at the wrong time and get far less.

“He would explain to me that some people were born whores, and that I was one, and I was a slut, and nobody’d want me but him, and the best thing I could do was just learn to be a good whore,” she testified.

Richard Adler, a clinical and forensic psychiatrist, who also testified Nov. 13, suggested that Brown’s erratic behavior could be explained by her birth mother’s abuse of alcohol while she was pregnant with Brown. He and other experts have diagnosed Brown as suffering from alcohol-related neurodevelopmental disorder — a type of fetal alcohol syndrome disorder that he characterized as a “severe mental disease and defect.”

Cyntoia Brown case: Celebrities support teen killer, highlight sex trafficking abuse

NASHVILLE, Tenn. — A celebrity social media campaign is highlighting issues of sex trafficking abuse in the case of a Tennessee woman convicted as a teen of killing a 43-year-old man who had picked her up for sex.